16 January 2009

not dead, dormant

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Reports of my death have been slightly exaggerated. In fact, I'm back and ready to blog regularly again. I didn't realize how much Blog365 took out of me. I don't think of myself as a "real" writer. I just open up the Blogger window and spew. I don't agonize or even edit very much. (Yes, I know it shows. Thanks for mentioning it.) So the thought of burn-out didn't occur to me. If I'm not doing it for real, I couldn't possibly burn out. Blah Blah Blah

Anyway, I burned out. Feeling better now.

Part of why I am feeling better is that I have scratched and crawled my way back to the Weight Watchers wagon. I didn't stop paying them, and I didn't stop going to meetings entirely, but I did stop writing down everything I eat and for me, that's where it all ends. I hate doing it, but damn it if it doesn't work. On Wednesday, when I started journalling in earnest, I weighed 171.8 pounds. Yesterday I was 169.6. Today 168. That's 3.8 pounds in two days of being careful. Though I know it's mostly from drinking more water, I know it's also from not eating anything from the basket of cookies in front of me at a meeting too.

Twice I have lost about 25 pounds on WW, and both times I got pregnant at about that point. I have never been at goal, though I did get within 7 pounds once. It's really time to solve this problem, and it's not going to get any easier as I get older. Since I would like to live long enough to see my grandchildren this is something I can't let slide any longer.

I'm aiming for making 1-2 habit changes a week. This week, I will eat a good breakfast every day before I leave the house, and be in bed before midnight (with a trend towards being in bed by 10:30pm eventually). Next week I will focus on adding regular exercise. That tends to be my biggest problem and it will require a creative solution. My hunch is that solving the sleep problem will also solve the exercise problem. If I can get to bed at a reasonable hour, getting up to exercise before I shower should be easier. I already trained myself to get up before the kids so I can get a shower. I just need another half hour. Piece of cake. Or maybe tofu.

1 comment:

Allison Says said...

I've been amazed at how well Weight Watchers works for me--and I think you are right about how important it is simply to be accountable for what you eat (and drink. Damn alcohol being so many points.)

Good for you! I've already lost 7.5 pounds, and I can't wait to keep going.

Congrats on finishing 365, too!